Lately, I’ve been staying up very late most nights. In fact, there were two nights this past week when I tried to go to bed early, and I ended up laying there unable to sleep until after 1:00 am. I guess my body is adapting to less sleep than I really need, and that concerns me.
What also concerns me is that I’ve started to wear my lack of sleep like a badge of honor. What’s up with that? I guess it’s just another of the strange ways I try to justify my existence and prove my worth. Instead of basing my worth on my adoption by God through Jesus, I’m still trying to prove it in silly ways.
Father, help me to trust you and see my worth through the cross rather than trying to prove myself.